and this is what I’m doing 🙂 Wearing a face mask, cleaning and working on the whole packing and organizing thing and trying out new running fashion. Hey everyone else can rock the leggings and long flowy tank top and I always felt like it wasn’t flattering on me so I’m giving it a shot.
I think I’m inspired by the fact that I am uninspired by working out and yet also feeling fat and ugly and trapped in my body. So instead of dwelling on that and trying to power through p90x when I don’t want to I’m not going to. I took an extra rest week last week because I couldn’t fit the dvd workouts into my busy week with Dan’s parents here and other comittments. All I did was run or power-walk last week. And now I feel chubby and unkempt but also unmotivated. Yesterday I couldn’t bring myself to run, I feel clunky and heavy so I went for a 2 hour power-walk to clear my head and stretch out my legs. It helped. But I still feel weighted down. and I don’t want to do push ups and squats and lunges for the Core Synergistic DVD but I have to do something, something to make me feel good about myself, I need to find a way to feel good inside my body. So I’m just going to go for a run, in my running clothes and see how that feels and go from there. Then, if I can, I’ll do Core. Any advice?